when will it come to me???

i admit that i am a jealous person..
i want to have anything that you have..
but..
i will get it via my effort..
as long as i can get it if i work for it..
but..
not everything will be like that..
you can't even approach it although you have paid lots of effort on it..
it's a fate..
and..
when will it come to me??