thx to my best busy friend

i am so happy..
because of my busy best friend..
whom i knew him via msn..
he is a good counselor..
although i might not have the chance to meet him in person..
i can just share anything with him..
as the same as writing in this blog..
the difference is he will give me suggestion..
i do appreciate what i am having now..
including him.. a word from him :
..there is a miracle when you believe..
i wouldn't let the previous to influence my future..
i must live my life better than previous..
it's a lost for those who didn't appreciate ourselves..
because there is someone who will always stand beside us..
listen to us..
support us.. and appreciate us..
may be he or she isn't appear in your life..
may be you haven't realised he or she is now around you..
but i hope you can find him or her one day..
best of luck to you..

just do my best!!

the php lab to day really damn boring..
wu liao..
every times also like that..
until now the lecturer still hasn't taught us about the programming practically..
my diploma project..
which requires to use php..
is already on the half way..
but then the php lecturer just taught us how to install..
sigh..
a useless subject to be taken in this sem..
wasting time..
while in the boring lab..
a matter cross my mind suddenly..
my senior..
who has the same name with me..
not only that..
even hometown,physical outlook,secondary school,university life..
almost the same..
but there is a few differences too..
which i feel jealous of her..
but that isn't the matter for me now..
she told me that since i am the only Chinese in my class now..
i should get the best result..
and also try to get the 'anugerah naib canselor' for my diploma..
since she got it for her diploma..
this is one of the matters which i hope to be same with her..
but i know i can't..
during the boring class..
i kept on thinking that how can i get the best result..
since i didn't do well in my third sem..
and i know that i won't have the chance to get the anugerah..
a bit disappointed..
but it's a fact..
i just can do my best to get my best result for my diploma in information technology..
this course isn't my interested field..
but i don't regret to come here..
UTHM..
and to take this course..
i have learnt much more things besides academic..
may be this is the only reason i can use to console myself..
no matter how..
i will still continue to do my best..
and to find out my own sky..

different mean of homesick..

yesterday night i went to the 'yu lan jie sheng hui' at parit raja with my friends..
actually i just wanna go there for nothing..
i wasn't going there for 'lok lok'..
i wasn't going there for 'cai tao kuih'..
and of cause..
i wasn't going there for la glace..
haha..
but i don't know why..
i just wanna be there..
even standing there..
looking around..
it's because i felt that i am at my hometown when i am there..
even though i don't like going back hometown..
many of my friends do wonder why i didn't go back hometown during any holiday..
except for the sem break..
i would like to keep the feeling of homesick..
rather than going back there..